On Wednesdays We Wear Pink

On Wednesdays We Wear Pink

October 10, 2018, 9:08 pm
Filed under: Cancer, Pink

So, it appears, it is time to dust off the old blog again. This year, has been a wild one and it is only going to get wilder. It was in this year that I turned forty. In this year I celebrated my eleventh wedding anniversary. And it was this year that I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Obviously, some parts of this year have been better than others.

So, the short version of what has been a really long story. I was diagnosed with stage one cancer in early June. After the diagnosis my life became a whirlwind of doctors appointments, initial consultations and second opinions. It also became a time of a lot of self reflection and more than a little self doubt. It became a time to withdraw inward, and figure out next steps.

At Least I Like Pink

I also have an AMAZING stylist. Who chopped my hair and dyed it pink… in honor of breast cancer month.

Lucky for me, the cancer was caught early and my prognosis was (is) good. Despite the early diagnosis, I made the decision to undergo a double mastectomy. The surgery itself went well, and my margins came back clear. (The cancer did not spread to my lymph nodes.) Post surgery, my test results indicated a really aggressive cancer; one that would require chemotherapy to ensure that it was truly gone and not coming back.

What can I say about this so far? It sucks? Yeah, it kind of sucks. I mean, the two things that I have always been okay with in terms of body image were my hair and my boobs. It’s not that they helped to define me as a woman, but from time to time they made me feel more womanly. And so, as luck would have it… both were going to be gone.

So I wallowed, for a little bit. I wallowed and wailed in a sea of misery until I got all pruny. And then it was time to stop. It was time to put on the big girl panties (pink in honor of breast cancer month) and remember all that I had, rather than what I was losing.

The Bright Side

Let’s face it, I have an awesome support system. I have fantastic friends who I know will stick with me through thick and thin. I have a job that will support me 100% (and has been amazing as I schedule surgeries, and doctors appointments… and more surgeries.) I can work anywhere there is WiFi, and the hospital’s WiFi flies.

I get a brand new set of boobs, PERKY ONES! I live in a city that is chock full of FANTASTIC doctors, and I have the insurance to help me through this. I have a family that loves me and will help me the moment I ask, and sometimes even when I don’t ask. And I have an unbelievable partner who has wept with me, and held me. Who has shown me in every way possible that he will be by my side through everything, for better or worse, in sickness and in health… and that is more than some people get in lifetime.

So, dear readers, if you want to follow me on this journey while I do my best to kick cancer’s ass? Well, please do! I would love to have you along for the ride. Just remember, on Wednesdays we wear pink.

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